Court and solicitor costs

Why should I live a life with no house no money no savings for my kids in later life all because of expensive court and solicitor costs ? I have worked hard all my life provided all for my wife but it seems was not enough. Now im trying hard to keep the kids in the country. Because of this I risk loosing my hours and my livelihood to get the best representation and advice that I can. Or I can do it all myself and risk not winning.

But my Ex sits at home all day, no job and gets it all for free. I have money problems and they are all down to her. However as a reward for all the problems she has caused she get Legal Aid. What kind of society do we live in ? I thought we all got equal and fair representation in the courts. Seems its only if you have money or no job.